Tag: weekend

two exhalations in gratitude

in the midst of life’s current unfairness, i am still thankful. i have a lot to be thankful for. more than i could ever imagine.


.shmooshy.

boots that could kick ass, and which mean i escape a funcrazy night without bruises. friends. smiles. watching you in your brilliance, that you do with such ease. laughing. sleeping in. you holding my hand in the middle of the scary things. dinner. grinning. random adventures where we get lost and it’s okay. silly shopping and level four hunger. playtime. bathtime. sleeptime. sunshine. cars that sound scarily like South Park motorcycles. “keep your socks on”, Cam says, from the backseat. you understand what i mean when i say gehpess. cows on the side of the road. heh. friends. warm. when you’re asleep, you fling your arm over me. whenever you say something, whatever it is, you mean it. a little smile from a little face you love so much becomes a grin wider than the sky. in talking with a friend, i am reminded, again, of how lucky i am. i tell you, and i’m reminded again because you don’t shy away from me telling you the way i feel. you reciprocate and i am awed. every day, an adventure and every night, the peace.

.cameron.

open-eyed and smiling. talking and telling of a weekend where you were happy. your katy perry and big bang theory impersonations. the aplomb with which you tackle each new thing. in putting together this puzzle of life, you confidently know where the pieces should go. but, you decide, in your own way, how to arrange them. you open up to the world and love every second. i’ve seen you give love, receive love, jump for joy for love. i watched you today, drawing on a chalkboard, and negotiating your way towards the pink chalk, through other children. i was awed by your politeness and charm. my child. that little baby girl, playing with other kids and smiling over a milkshake with sprinkles. i am, every time i see you smile, simply blown away that you chose me to be your mama.

sundaze.

Dear Cam,

Mama is so proud of you. Singing so loudly and dancing like the music shot straight out of your soul.

Your confidence, your love, your complete exuberance at every day.

I cried my little head off at your play on Friday. My pride and my gratitude that you chose me to be your mama is beyond the stars. I thank you, my little girl who saved my life and my heart.

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Dear Shmooshy,

Thank you. It’s Sunday night and I’m sitting here smiling telepathically at you. You know full well I never expected you. You are my favourite surprise. I didn’t know Christmas was coming early this year. Hehe. Thank you for the sunshine and the peace. For the hilarious Team Sunburn (TM) tans and phenomenal laughter. Thank you for squeezing my hand, just when I didn’t even know I needed it. Thank you for your courage, and your brilliant talking to yourself like I do. Like I am right now, writing this. Thank you for being magnificent in a fragile world. Thank you for being okay with me writing this. And for reading it, like I know you are.

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Dear whoever’s reading this right now,

Thank you friends for dancing with me in this lilac space of smiles. If you were a Facebook status, I’d click “like”. If you were a tweet, I’d re-tweet you. And if you were in my house I would make you tea.

…

My life is an awesome 360 kickflip. And I’m so thankful that I got on the skateboard.

Surprise Mirror

Thanks for being nice. Thanks for listening.

Thank you for your “there’s no reason to be a dick. there are enough dicks in the world” talk.

Thanks for your Alanis Morissette vs Tori Amos theory.

Thank you for being funny. So funny.

You have no idea how much I needed to laugh.

(p.s. audience of I what now hear is down to eleven *heh*, i had a great weekend. happy. sad. sane. insane. finally, clarity.  man i’m tired).

Quicke Update for all you stalker types =)

  • Went to JHB for an awesome/divine/exhilirating conference with a difference
  • Stayed with a divine family and was woken up every morning with requests for EyeSpy
  • Shopped a bit. Okay, no, a lot. Cameron is well spoilt. Beans on toast from here on out.
  • Ate a lot of divine food. Including cheese croquettes. And seriously, people, i love Stilton.
  • Had a good opportunity to get a little sunshine in the garden and spend a little time shooting the breeze with most excellent people (heehee). =)
  • Excellent conference venue, with shit wifi so, apologies for the radio silence
  • Had dinner with Will in JHB. We call it interprovincial, nondiscriminatory best friending. waha. He came up to buy a new car so we can finally say goodbye to the goldmembermobile.
  • BigUp to Sanette on Kulula for moving us to the front row!
  • It has also been a week of loss.
  • My thoughts rest with the family of Mr G – God Bless you in your travels, your conquests and queries…and may your daughters and wife be kept safely in love’s arms. May you ride high and fly free. You will be missed.
  • My thoughts rest too with the family of FP – May your children know your love every day, and may your inspiring way continue to make us smile.You will be missed.
  • Before I even got on the ‘plane though, I had one excellent, chilled weekend. I heart: Taco Zulu, Will, Friends, Dancing to Madonna, New shoes, Saturday nights of pizza and movies and snuggles, Bouncing through life trampoline-style and my new red handbag.

And lastly, and completely, thank you.

You know who you are.

You are the cheese on my toast, person.

sssssshhhhhhhhh.

don’t tell anyone but i’m still smit. so, just tell everyone, then, heh.

gonna miss you, tart whilst you go away and probably get groped, at least once, by larcy. I am okay with this 🙂

gonna miss you, tart whilst i go away and not get groped at all, and instead spend some quality time with people and egos and suchlike.

i still have no idea why you put up with me, cash prize not inclusive. Hehe4.

thank you for a divine weekend and for dealing with insane me. because, let’s face it, i am probably insane.

sotd: in praise of the vulnerable man – anm.

You are the bravest man I’ve ever met
You unreluctant at treacherous ledge

You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with
You, never hotter than with armor spent

When you do what you do to provide
How you land in the soft as you fortify

This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home

You, with your eyes mix strength with abandon
You with your new kind of heroism

And I bow and I bow down to you
To the grace that it takes to melt on through

This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man

You are the greatest man I’ve ever met
You the stealth setter of new precedents

And I vow and I vow to be true
And I vow and I vow to not take advantage

This is in praise of the vulnerable man
Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home
This is a thank you for letting me in
Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man

stream of consciousness.

read this:  http://www.consciousvibe.co.za/node/773

think this: have good friends. have a bright life. dance without fear.

love this: sunshining day

hug this: beautiful child named calla that i met today for the first time.

watch this: videos from last night waha.

sing this: torch – alanis morissette

message this: hey, let’s go buy pie! haha.

figure out: how to respond to your mentor asking you for your opinion. And being floored by it. And so honoured.

eat this: pudding of life.

think about this: horses flying. (which makes no sense to anyone but you)

never be: afraid to make a foot out of yourself. spelling mistake intentional. 🙂

look forward to: stage diving with cameron tomorrow. heehee.

always smile.

Happy weekend darlings