i

1. i have the cleverest, funniest, most compassionate friends on the planet…“compatriots in place. our best back pocket secret. our bond full-blown”.

2. i made some mental decisions this weekend. definitive ones, that concern noone but me. but which are ultimately good for me, in this time and space…“most visibly brave”

3. it was about time i started making some choices. i know how i want to begin each day now. i will no longer apologise for wearing my heart on my sleeve, face, eyes and hands. i will be honest with my hurts and my joy. and that also means when something doesn’t matter, i’m not going to be made to feel it should matter. am i making any sense?...”my view about face weather. great will be done”

4. i return to CT later this week. i cannot wait to see my friends and the mountain. that said, this year, i will not avoid going North so much either. keep your eyes peeled on that one 😛 I really need to see Sheena...“Oh ominous place spellbound and unchild-proofed”

5. i really need to clean the house. i miss my maid. but i love how Cam is finally settled in…and me too…“most beautiful place, reborn and blown off roof”.

6. i must be the luckiest girl alive. there’s no other explanation for the wonder that exists right before me, around me and next to me…“i am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment”

7. i keep speaking that good old truth, even though it may not be popular…“most visibly brave no apprehended gloom”

8. i’m nervous again. nervous is good. nervous means exciting...”my least favourite chill to bear alone”

9. i have new headphones for work. this may seem random to you, reading this, but they are my sanity saver when i need to focus…“i live the envelope pushed far enough to believe this”

10. focus. yep. focus. guess what i chose to do...”I am a pioneer naive enough to believe this”

11. Cameron grew up again. Amazing, wonderful child of love…“wunderkind”

12. ah the inevitable list of twelve. (for glugster).  i end with this: “i am a princess on the way to my throne”.