Today is my shmooshy’s birthday. He turns a year older, and well, he doesn’t need the wisdom.
You see, you, we had this discussion a while ago and bitching about how very old we were getting. And my brain, as it always does, wandered towards birthdays and celebrations…
Bam! Fact for you…
I never thought you’d be celebrating it with me.
But, then, as you well know, we are the unexpected story. The one that has me smiling at sunrises and keeps me smiling when day is quite hard. It’s the one I like to read, over and over again. And inspires me to be more myself than I have in a long, long time. And that includes being a lame and unashamed girl.
The truth is, skeptical cynical Cath never really has been very good at being a girl. Mostly because I’ve never really felt good enough/safe enough/stuff enough to really be that with another person. There’s probably a myriad of reasons for that…all of which are currently unimportant and irrelevant. heh.
I thank you for your honesty with me. Always the honesty. Even when you think it might hurt. I thank you for sitting through my rants with me. Even when you think they’re totally unfounded. I thank you for your patience with me when I waver. And for dealing with my sometimes desire to want to punch things.
I thank you for the way you are with Cameron. How very calming it is. I thank you for spending fuck knows how long it took you to find the only copy of The Little Mermaid on DVD in Durban, just so my little princess’ dream could come true. I thank you for the way you are with me.
I thank you for the little things. The tiniest of observations. The shit you notice that no-one else does.
And really, Shmooshy, no-one else does.
I thank you for getting me. For understanding when I say “Cath-Time”. For needing “Shmooshy-Time” too.
I thank you for being you. With your warp-speed mind and tangents of babble. For making me laugh and cuddling me when I need it. I thank you for your male brain and it’s peripheral vision that extends beyond shoes (and for this, I kick you :P)
Happy birthday my Shmooshy. Big pink cartoon hearts all round.