and here i begin my sarcastic apologies, once again…
i apologise if i work alot.
nobody else is going to pay the bills for me.
i apologise if i fail in my social obligations.
nobody else is going to get a night’s sleep for me.
i apologise completely if i choose being a mom over being anything else.
nobody else is Cameron’s mother and it is my primal and completely loved duty and joy to be that mama.
oh, and lastly, i apologise for choosing to spend time with my boyfriend and Cameron.
funny thing is, for the first time in my life, i don’t have someone who treats her like an occasional novelty or constant inconvenience.
a real friend would’ve been happy for me and not diss me like i’m a smelly hobo. yes, i heard that.
most of all, i apologise if any of it is inconvenient to you.
it is my life.
it is my daughter’s life.
and if you want to be a part of it, you’re welcome.
if you don’t want to be, then please, fuck right off.
just like i have always respected your life choices, even when i did not agree, a mere modicum of reciprocal respect would’ve gone a very, very long way towards me never feeling this way.
anyway, you’ve made your choices.
i’m a little too busy to listen to you whine about how unfair it is that i choose being Cameron’s mother over absolutely everything else in the world. sorry if that hurts but, maybe when you grow up and actually stand on your own two feet instead of whining about how the world is unfair to you all the time then you’ll get it.
’til then. please, go ahead and don’t let the door hit you on the way out.