Tag: anm

and then she says…whilst she dances into the weekend…

it’s the weekend. so i’m looking forward to chilling out, getting a violin (this is codespeak. people. seriously. you know about me and anything requiring coordination. this codespeak is for a friend) and extreme cammertime.

Sunshine, please? I have been brave and good, and present this week.

Very present. In every moment. it has been good, indeed. Mostly because i got to be clear, and blunt and focused.

have a good weekend, you audience of eleven.

Anyway, this is on my iTunes today.  Mostly because, Neen, Bee and Angel were singing along songs with me. You gals rock. Mostly because, I can rock on my chair (this is a genetic characteristic) to it.

bent for you ~ anm

you’re unsure and you’re not ready so that must mean I want you
you’re unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort

a million times in a million ways I will try to change you
a million months and a million days I’ll try to somehow convince you

I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I’m done
I have deferred to you and enabled you and I’m done

you’re too young or you’re too old or you’re simply not inclined
you’re asleep or you’re withholding be that my cue to crave you

several times in several ways I’ll try to squeeze love from you
several hours and several ways I’ll feast on scraps thrown from you

I have bent for you and I’ve deprived for you and I’m done
I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I’m done
I have stifled for you and I’ve compromised for you and I’m done
I have stunted for you and sacrificed for you and I’m done

it won’t be long before I am reclaimed
it won’t take long and I’ll be on path again
it won’t be easy for us to disengage
I’m at the end of self deprivation stage

you’re afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings
you cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me, god and everything

a million times and a million ways I’ve tried to alter to match you
several times every several days I’ve tried to uncrush on you

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as will would say, woo woo.

My SOTD for today: here

If it weren’t for your maturity none of this would have happened
If you weren’t so wise beyond your years I would’ve been able to control myself
If it weren’t for my attention you wouldn’t have been successful and
If it weren’t for me you would never have amounted to very much

Ooh this could be messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
And I have honoured your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

You’re essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me
You’re a kind of my protégé and one day you’ll say you learned all you know from me
I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian
I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it

Ooh this could get messy
But you don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

We’ll fast forward to a few years later
And no one knows except the both of us
I’ve more than honored your request for silence
And you’ve washed your hands clean of this

What part of our history’s reinvented and under rug swept?
What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
What with this distance it seems so obvious?

Just make sure you don’t tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cause you’re such a pretty thing when you’re done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don’t seem to mind
Ooh don’t go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

sotd – orchid

blowing the bubbles here today. smiles

SOTD: orchid – anm.

Me, and my helmet such an unconventional kid
All intense and kinetic, at best tolerated from afar
Not yet arrested, and by that I mean betrothed
though a start I am newly courted
I’ve just not been trusted with altars

I’m a sweet piece of work, well intentioned yet disturbed
wrongly labeled and underfed, treated like a rose as an orchid

My friends, as they weigh in, get understandably protective
They have a hard time being objective
So inside we cancel each other out

I’m a sweet piece of work, well intentioned and unloved
unlabeled and misunderstood, treated like a rose as an orchid

You’ve brought water to me, making sure my bloom rebounds
you know best of what my special care allows

So I’ve lived in my blind spot
thought myself usual when I’m not
and your garden is a nice spot
as long as it is brave and where you are

For this sweet piece of work, high maintenance and deserted
I’ve been different and deserving, treated like a rose as an orchid
Sweet piece of work, overwhelmed, unobserved
I’ve been bowed down to but so misread
treated like a rose as an orchid