Dear Cam,
Well, we’re here. At the precipice of the changes that you and I have spoken about. Tomorrow, you start a new school. In two weeks, we have a new home.
I know, and you know, that there has been a lot of change recently. All of it good but, as you and I both know, change, no matter how, is always hard. There’s always that period of adjustment where we both hang for a bit, suspended. You’ve inherited your resistance to change from both your parents, and you deal with it in exactly the same way we both do – you ignore it until it’s right in front of your face, and then try to resist it still.
So, you’ve been ignoring it. Granted, you’re excited yet trepidatious. I know that once the next few weeks are over, things will settle into routine and you’ll be back to being yourself again. I know, my baby, I know. I’m battling with the idea that you are growing up. All this evolution that happens so quickly. All this tallness. When did you get so tall? Now that, that I KNOW you got from your father.
The thing about these changes, see, is not only are they good but, we’re supported in them. Both of us. It’s not just me holding you up and egging you forward. It’s all of us. It’s not just you and me against the world here. We’ve got love, we’ve got family, we’ve got friends and we’ve got support. Mama even has some friends who let her rant and then tell her to buck up and grow up. They know exactly who they are, and they are so very right indeed.
I know you will be a shining star. I know you’ll do as you do, and charm the smiles from everyone. I know seperating from everyone that you have come to lean on over time, is hard. I promise you will make new friends. I promise you, my girl.
Tonight, you and I will pack your bag, talk over dinner and after your bedtime-storytime, I will hug you tightly and kiss you on the head. Just like every night. Just, tonight, tonight we say goodnight, forever, to your baby days. Tomorrow, we say good morning to your big girl days.
Mama is so proud of you. Mama is so blessed to have you. Mama is right beside you, all the way.
xxx
Mama.