44 things i wish you knew. weirdly, i think you already do.
1. youre the only person whos made me laugh at myself and not made me feel small at the same time. lets be honest, im small as is. some days i fear mice will squish me.
2. great big outbursts of glee are standard procedure for me nowadays. i never knew it could be like that.
3. and that theyd be accepted as standard practice.
4. im alot less fragile than i let on.
5. im alot more fragile than i let on.
6. im scared about tuesday. it wont stop me though.
7. its starting to sink in. it doesnt make any less magical though.
8. sometimes when you sleep i just watch you.
9. your honesty astounds me.
10. i have zero interest in running.
11. maybe things arent okay in life, but theyre okay with me.
12. people are dumb. i hate that ive been dumb in the past.
13. its not going to stop me though.
14. i am crazy possessive.
15. not in the conventional, timesucking way though.
16. i dont want to spend every moment with you. just most of them.
17. i notice the little things way more than i do the big things.
18. even if i dont seem to, i do.
19. sometimes i just dont know how to say that i do.
20. i love that you understand me when im incoherent.
21. i adore the way you dance.
22. lost in something, you are at peace.
23. every second i realise more and more that this is exactly where ive always wanted to be.
24. i believe that when you make a choice in life, you win the right to complain about it. making the choice is most of the hard work.
25. im sorry anything or anyone ever broke you. you dont deserve destruction, only creation.
26. i never knew that being with someone could be liberating.
27. i may have had nothing to do with anything or anyone ever breaking you, but ill do my damnedest to make sure it never happens again.
28. the most ive ever been lonely is when someone is in the same room with me. i’ve never felt lonely with you in the sphere.
29. ive never met anyone who can handle the craziness with such calm.
30. you should stop worrying that im going to think something is weird. im not going to. there is nothing weird about honesty.
31. im listening to 30 seconds to mars. its questioning all my values, and im loving it.
32. i saw you once in a store in your old neighbourhood, and couldnt say hi. i wish i had. i hid instead. i wish id never been that dumb.
33. ive built a bridge since, and walked right over it, burnt it down and sang it a hymn.
34. hells i even bought it a tombstone and erected it one day on the beach.
35. i love watching you immersed in something.
36. im sure that freaks you out.
37. im okay with that.
38. most days i want to pinch myself to check im not dreaming.
39. you are a lot cleverer than you let on.
40. modesty comes across in strange ways.
41. you have no idea how empowering it is for me to tell someone that im scared.
42. and to know that they wont abuse it.
43. this is the safest place in the universe i have ever been.
44. thank you.