Heaven

SOTD: Heaven – Live.

Why?

Well, it’s simple. I haven’t seen Cam since last week. which means, actually, last year.

Today is a really crap day. Busy, getting my proverbial chops busted alot.

And, the truth is… I’d rather be Cammertime-ing than be anyone else but MamaCath.

You see, the freedom of being the person who gets to be Cam’s mom (and that’s ME!)  is that that’s ALL you have to be to her. Ever. That’s ALL she cares about.

She doesn’t care what I look like, feel like, made choices about. She doesn’t care about whether or not I will be somewhere I’m supposed to. She doesn’t give a flying you-know-what about what I ate for breakfast or if I’m wearing the right shoes.

She doesn’t care about my lackings. She cares about far more important things. Like, is there chocolate and can we eat it in bed and cuddle?

I can’t wait to see my baby. She comes home this evening. I hate being away from her. I have to do it so much.

I’ve spent nearly five years in this state of “I can’t wait to see my baby”. Ask the nurses at the hospital who tried to restrain me from getting her from the nursery at 2am. And who told me to sit in a wheelchair. Or lie down. Or wait til she was brought to me. I’ll never forget telling that nurse “er, lady. move out of my way. before I make you. thank you very much”.

I can’t wait to see you Cam. My baby. My not-so-baby. My little girl who is growing up so fast.

Mama loves you.

I don’t need no one to tell me about heaven
I look at my daughter, and I believe.

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