12.

I wish I was a glow worm
A glow worm’s ever glum
Cause how can you be grumpy
When the sun shines out your bum!

thank you.

hello, the rest of you. the rest of you who know i had a *bit* of a *day* today. it started with me having fallen asleep in Cam’s bed because I missed her so much. She came home this afternoon with a sleepy yawn and a happy face full of paint. grannies do rock, don’t they? 🙂

i feel like i had to spleenvent today and, well, i felt raw. poked. like i’d had the bullets shot through me and then taken out via my eyeballs. where i’ve felt the need to summon the bliss of just being able to let things go, and not feel tortured by choices i have to make.

i had phonecalls from faraway friends (you know who you are and are and are).

a friend visits and we purge the mass of the year over presents and quoting books we wish we had read five years ago. i realise i’m just holding back on things and that means i hold back on myself. we laugh and say “same life, us”. congratulate each other on surviving some amazing fuckwittage. did the catatonic bird and really just wanted to get the geck off (so much codespeak, people must think we’re insane…shhh and pass me the salad :P). throw perspective at a mess neither of us wants to talk about anymore. die at photos from this year that started with us in different continents, a kabillion plane rides that i’ve had to take, mountains i had to climb, avoided the paparazzi, chased the paparazzi and ends with us just a skip away again.

99percent in orbit, again…

And, I”m okay.

in fact, i’m brilliant.

i’m brilliant because i can tell *you* (yes, this part’s about you, right here) how crap it is and you’re okay with it. you let me vent and you let me not cry and shrug it off whilst i rant. you let me whine. and then you make me smile. and laugh. Fuck, i needed to laugh.

I climb into bed and I smile.

I am so thankful.