now that i have that rant out of the way (it’s below this post. if you want the password, please feel free to ask for it. i’m more than willing to share it with a selection of you).
i have a pretty busy week ahead of me so i may be a little scarce round these parts.
i wanted to just take a moment, post-rant-after-something-made-me-so-angry-i-could-not-sleep…to say one thing.
i woke up this morning, ridiculously early, and was determined to have a thankful day.
that rant below, swayed me from it a bit.
tonight, at this insane hour, i am determined and i am ending this day thankful.
i count my blessings and i run out of fingers and toes.
Shmooshy…
Thank you.
Thank you to you for making me laugh so hard with a single arm movement that i am still busting a proverbial gut right now.
Thank you for listening and not trying to fix everything, just because i told you about it.
Thank you for creating our own codespeak.
Thank you for being my toemate. 🙂
Thank you for laughing at my lame jokes and stories from friends that i am probably going to tell for at least the next ten years so i really hope you don’t get bored of it.
Megan and Larcy and Sheena…
Thank you for “don’t tell ****” dinners and messaging me at midnight because you’re worried about me and sharing the minutiae of life that we hold so secretly important and don’t tell anyone about because it means we would like a little uncool. Thank you for always being there, beyond your own lives, even when yours has been in disarray.
For some of you reading this who I will not name but you know very well who you are…
For letting me bounce my ideas off you. For letting me in and reassuring me in a life-space where I sometimes still feel foreign. For your little secret messages to me that remind me that I am doing okay. That, in fact, sometimes, I can be brilliant.
Your love. Your love keeps me going. Your love keeps me doing this. Your love is what makes all of it feel okay.
Your courage. Your brave sharing of you. Is what keeps me sharing this little me too.