Dear New Year,
I know that every new year, most people make resolutions, devoting themselves to quitting smoking/losing weight/stopping with the midnight snacks/promising they’ll get more sleep. As we all band together and sing Auld Lang Syne, our voices warble towards the new year, full of hope and sworn endeavours to make our resolutions stick.
I don’t have any resolutions this year. Looking back at 2012, which was a year of good growth and interesting change, I realised I didn’t have anything I desired to make into reality. 2012 was an upward and sometimes sideways trajectory, that left me, sometime in December, realising that my heart is happy and my dreams are unfolding their pages into my reality. All I ask, dear year, is that this continues. May that upward and sideways trajectory continue, and please keep bringing the sweet surprises to my life. That magic makes the hard parts softer.
As for the bittersweet parts of the past year – yes, I do see them. I see their lessons and I understand the folly of certain things. Moreover, I feel released from them. I feel released from the expectations I impressed upon myself, and I am happy to live with what I have. I’m not keen on returning to a state where I tried very hard to push myself into boxes that my arms don’t fit into, and my brain thinks it should leave. I also think of some of my dear friends, who have faced some incredible challenges in the last year. I want this year to be easier on them and for them to feel more secure in life. Please let us all find beauty in every day, and clarity of thought in every way.
The only wish I really have is this…
May 2013 be a year of only truths.
May 2013 be a year of meaning.
May 2013 be a year of dancing, both with our feet and our hearts.